a great girth
of a man heaves
his breath next to me
    a labor to remain
alive one more day

more determined
    obliviously
to fight fate
    he lets loose
        happy
    little tunes
in forced pushes

and i can't help
    but imagine him
sometimes even scared
    his songs
alone at night
will soon end

my body teaches
through twists,
closed eyes opening
back in time
showing the buried
crook in neck,
shoulder locked
and turned to open
the feeling i once knew
again like a broken
snapped-heart stick
    released today
in a slow drawn smile

tracks, hard lines in parallel
efficiently route to the one horizon
we all agreed mostly to travel in
ease and comfort, smooth speeds
    people in seats
expecting the familiar
clap clap of small gaps
as the fast earth moves on
under bare feet

there never was
    time
enough to try
finding you
with all the little
never complete
    strings
connecting us
all apart

you protected me
from the edge
    above the flows
without reason

and I never wondered
    why you
until today