it's not that i don't want
   to be with you
but i cannot be with you
when others exist, ripples
play off interference
patterns that are not us
   our aggregate form
none of us really exist
how we are like we are now
in this place
alone together
where lies
simply illustrate
more truth

and thrust in
all together is too much
to hear
at once

a scientist
uses math
(which counts
things) to help
  visualize
  invisible
verifiable things
even things
that cannot be
yet verified
by touch (counting
for real) instead
metaphysically
represented in
quantities of 123
where infinity
which might
as well be
  nothingness
as the Answer indicates
  Error or
rather unknown
or trickier
  (motion)

i don't know
why i feel
 i want
to be wanted
despite knowing
 (why)