i know what happens
when you stop caring
  for yourself
entropy begins to win
as we know it will
but sooner with more
trickery making you
  care even less 
  for others
despite your swearing
you never could be
heart less like that

conversations
about trees
wild growth
with a man
who knows them
like family
all around
he'll help me
make things
better
where mom
and dad left
off and i
am left
with carrying
little plans
to all
the years ahead

i've imagined
my bodymind
   balanced
from side to side
head to foot toes
and turned, twisted
   temporarily
from too much
affixed attention
   i need
to let go
   to find
where i settle
   next

little sneaks
sniffing around
for rabbit
babies to eat
cutie little
sneaks yipping
hiding in bushes
from so big
scary me